Wise Words? Back from Break

Its been a while

Two months ago I had a goal of posting in this format once a week. Obviously that hasnt been happening lately, and this is due to two simple weaknesses which I hope I can better overcome moving forward: fear and indecision. Back in May, I looked back at a lot of what I had written here and promptly decided (was overcome with the fear) that it was all centered around the same central theme: being an Other. 

However, after a helpful discussion with my loyal reader (hi mom) I learned that it may not necessarily appear that way to everyone. I do think Othering is something which has contributed greatly to my social anxiety and medical depression, so I do plan to finish that book despite it being dark and difficult to write, but Ive decided that philosophical and fictional writing have separate value. For one thing I actually edit these posts so its good practice for my fiction writing, and for the other it allows me to express a different channel within my writing and reading brain.

As for the work happening in the other channel right now, there's a great chance no one will ever read that thing, even once its edited and all, but the writing process has helped heal me. The act of writing that work has been super difficult, Ive never even written a short story and the thing is already 150 pages long, so I do fear that its going to be inevitably horrible because of my own inexperience. But with all the extrinsic factors aside, Im seeing now that a lot of my thought patterns are based on fears and stressors which are buried so deep within my mind that I need to really tap into my creative brain in order to release that tension and become less encumbered. 

I would love to be less encumbered overall, maybe thats the real goal of this whole writing thing

So I had initially started this post as my next topic, but as that top paragraph ballooned I realized that I needed a little space to account for the time skip in this body of work, not that its being widely read or anything. I do appreciate my mom and any of my other friends who may have wondered on here for reading any of my words, it is nice to feel just a little bit more heard. 

Thank you all

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  1. AnonymousAugust 15, 2022 at 6:57 AM

    hi Sam! I enjoyed this post as well as the others. I think you are a talented writer, and I hope you continue to pursue this as a creative endeavor, and as a tool to unravel some of your own thoughts. I will always listen, and more importantly, hear you. Love you tons- mom

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